Tuesday, January 20, 2009


I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. Rev 3:15-16

Today was an historic day for our country. We now have an African-American president. And I am actually happy about that. I truly am. We, as a country have come so far and to think, that "we" have elected a man who would have been only property in the past, truly an historic day.

But, blah. I only wish that we also had elected a true Christian president. By the way, I, personally, did not vote for our newest president, and I can't see anything changing so that I would vote for him ever.
I just feel like as a nation, we have moved further away from where God would like us to be. I feel that it won't be long and His hand of protection will be lifted from our country and we will become a land of evil.
I cannot be happy about the prospect of the next four years politically. The fact that our new president has been very vocal about the fact that he would love to sign the Freedom of Choice Act into law makes me feel ill. Even if that were the only thing about his political agenda I am upset about, it would be enough. It's not, it's just the one that I feel very close to.

And, well, I'm tired. I want to live in a world where people think it's wrong to kill babies; where people actually believe in what the Bible says and live by it, not just say they believe for the sake of saying it.

And, that's all I've got right now. I wanted to says so much more, but I'm just tired.

And I am praying for President Obama, by the way. I do want him to do well, to lead our country with dignity and grace. I really pray that he will be touched by God, to really see Him, to want to draw closer to Jesus and lead the way He would so desire.
My prayer is also with our people. I truly wish for every person in the United States to see their need for Jesus, to know that He is the only truth, to be saved and not end up in hell. I haven't always cared about everyone, but I do now. My heart breaks to know that many of my family and friends will not be in heaven with me someday. And I want everyone there, including our president. I only hope it's not too late.

Monday, January 5, 2009


Seems I forgot I had a blog. Silly me!
I do intend to come back here soon. I really need it now.

Just heard tonight that my MIL's doctor has given her 3-6 months to live. The amount of grief and guilt my sweet Hub is carrying is getting heavier. I pray that I can do what's needed to lighten his load.
I am tired. I wish the world was perfect. Actually, I really wish that Jesus was returning. I am ready to live in my one true home. Not in a suicidal way, just in an "it would be so wonderful to see my savior face to face every day for the rest of my life, and live in my glorified body, and have no more sorrow" kind of way.

I am also so very heartbroken for a dear friend of mine. She has lost her second baby in less than a year. I have been so burdened for her in the last week. I feel the need to pray for her at least 8 or 10 times a day. I mean, really pray hard. At church on Sunday, the Spirit moved in me so strong for her. It was during praise and worship. And while we were singing one song, I felt an overwhelming need to pray for her. As the music played, I prayed. At the end of my prayer, and the end of the song, I knew that the next song was one that I would sing and pray for her. Here are the lyrics:

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I’m Your friend

You are my desire
No one else will do
’Cause nothing else could ever take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace

Help me find the way
Bring me back to You

You’re all I want
You’re all I’ve ever needed
You’re all I want
Help me know You are near

I was in tears by the end of the song. I really feel like God was saying that I can pray for her, that He will listen to my prayers as if it were her. I feel like right now, when she is at her lowest, in need of more than any human can give her, when only God can help, this is when I can step up. I can't imagine how hard each and every minute must be right now. And I know, when I am at my lowest, it is so hard to pray. And I have never dealt with such a hard thing.
So, if all I can do is pray, that is what I will do. And now is the time when she can use my prayers the most.
So, mama, if somehow you manage to stumble upon this, know that I will pray for you. Now, when you can't pray, when even breathing seems hard, I will stand in the gap for you, I will pray as if I am you, seeking God's comfort, peace, and love.