Sunday, January 24, 2010

That's enough

That's it! I've had it! I am so tired of just settling because it's what everyone else is doing; because it's just the way that it is; because they're going to do it anyway; because it's not really a big deal; because it isn't really hurting anyone.

Well, crap! (And yes, I know that I said crap. I'm mad!) It is hurting someone; it's hurting God. And it's hurting me and my family. And millions of other people in this world.

I just watched a movie on Lifetime, "The Pregnancy Pact." I knew from the previews what it would be about but I still wanted to see it. And I am so steaming mad right now. I am so tired of people cramming it down my throat that having sex isn't really that bad. Just give kids protection and it's fine to let 'em have at it. (And while we're at it, let 'em drink until they puke, too. -But that's a topic for another day.) Cause they're not hurting anyone, everyone does it, what's the big deal?

When did we lose our self-respect? When did it become okay to trample on God's word and call it harmless fun? Everywhere you look now it's considered just one of those things that everyone does. Sex sells. It's everywhere, in your face, on billboards, commercials, magazines, children's shows!! You can't go into a store and buy girls clothes without being bombarded by sex. Being sexy is the "in" thing to be.

This movie had an ulterior motive as well. Let's get rid of abstinence only programs and offer contraception to all the kids. Cause, you know, they're already doing it so let's make sure they're protected. Well, crap. (There, I said it again.) That is such faulty logic. (And something I used to spout myself) Just because someone is doing something wrong does not mean we should say well, okay, here- do it some more. And if any of my kids comes to me and says they are having sex, do I want them to be safe? Well, yes. But I believe the only way to be truly safe is to not have sex until you are married. Why is it such a bad thing to teach children? And why not say that if you've already had sex, it isn't too late to protect yourself now. Just start over. Try abstinence again. Bristol Palin is doing that. And she's getting skewered for it. And I just don't get it.

I don't see how anyone can say that people having sex with whomever they want, whenever they want, as often as they want is not a bad thing. The truth is, I can't say too much about it from experience. I had sex for the first time at 20, with a guy I was madly in love with and he was living with his girlfriend and their daughter at the time. (They were also living with his mother and brothers and sister. And I was living there, too. Crazy times.) I wanted to have sex with him; it's all I thought about for months. And afterwards, (A month or two afterwards) all I could think is "Why?" Why on earth did I lose my virginity to him? And then it was easy to keep to myself until Hub came along. Now, again, I didn't do the right thing. Hub and I had sex before we got married; we even lived together. But the fact that I am the only person he has ever had sex with is something I treasure. I wish I could have given him such a wonderful gift.

And there are other things I did in my past relating to sex that I am not proud of. Things that have hindered my relationship with the Lord, and with my wonderful Hub. I spend time even now being ashamed of my body and things I've done with it and it affects my sex life now. And yet, I hurt no one by having sex before marriage????? That's what the world is trying to tell me. And it's a load of crap.

God is the only pure, perfect, Holy being there ever was. And He says that it's wrong to have sex outside of marriage. And even if we don't understand why He says that, it's true. He does not lie. And it's something we should obey. I don't think that obedience is saying it's okay if people have sex, since they're already doing it, since they're going to anyway, since it isn't hurting anyone. Allowing it to go on is wrong. We should be taking a stand and teaching our children that God created sex. He created it to be a pure, perfect, wonderful thing to be shared between a husband and a wife. And if it is done the right way, in the right time, it is such a beautiful thing. And I'm tired of letting it become perverted. And regardless of what the world thinks, my children will be taught that sex should be reserved for marriage, the way our Lord and Saviour intended it to be.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

A Little of This...

You know, I don't really know what I want to say right now. I had plans to come sit down at the computer tonight and that somehow the words were just going to flow. But I did a little of this and a little of that and I never made it here. And now, eh, I'm really not in the mood.

But I feel like there's something I need to say. I'm scratching my head and still coming up empty. Maybe just posting tonight will get me back in the swing of blogging and then I'll figure out what I really want to say. Who knows.

I will talk about what's been going on around here. I've been doing a ton of reading. I'm reading a couple of books for group discussions; we started back to school after an almost 4 week break; and I started a new bible reading program: Read the Bible in 90 Days.  So, umm, yeah, a lot going on just with me. I don't know what I am thinking committing to so much at one time. I'm a bit crazy, but I am actually enjoying every minute of it.

The two books I'm reading are Crazy Love by Francis Chan and Living With Confidence in a Chaotic World by David Jeremiah.
Crazy Love is wonderful!! It's actually an easy read but it makes you (me anyway) look closer at your life, see if you are loving God with the kind of crazy love you should be. (For the record, I'm not. But I think that if I said I was, I would be satisfied and I don't think I should ever be satisfied with how close I am to God. I should always desire to be closer to Him.)
One part that is touching me right now is when it's talking about how we just add God on to the end of the day. We pray for a few minutes right before we go to bed, or we give a few dollars on Sunday after spending hundreds during the week. We serve Him leftovers. But this line touched me so much: "But the fact is that nothing should concern us more than our relationship with God."
I think we forget about that way too often. We put so many other things first. Often, we're doing good things. It's not bad to teach our children about God; it's not bad to be at church every time the door is open; it's not bad to say yes every time someone asks for help. It's easy to think that we are doing exactly what God wants us to be doing. It's also easy to see that neglecting our families, stealing, lying, lusting, and all those "big" sins are wrong. It's a lot harder to see that little things that we do that make us put God in second place, even when those things are good, well, that's called sin. No pretty way to say it. It's sin, and God hates sin.

So, ummm, yeah, I should be doing everything I can to put God first, and all the "stuff", even when the stuff is important stuff, it needs to be second. God should always be first. He's the reason I live, it's the least I can do to put Him first.

Now, for those two readers that I have that aren't Michelle ;-) head on over to her blog and read the wonderful post she just made. It literally brought me to tears. God has given her a gift. And she is using it to His glory. I admire you Michelle, and I am trying to find out what gifts God has given me so that I may use them like you have. You've got some crazy love going on and it's beautiful to see!!


I've not dropped off the face of the earth. Just not been in a blogging mood. But tonight, ah, tonight I have great plans.
Let's see if they materialize...