Saturday, September 25, 2010

Day something/something of 90: I've lost count!

Okay, so I really don't know what day I'm on. I know that today is Saturday and next Saturday is Day 90. And I'm too tired right now to figure that out in my head. Sigh.

I'm done. No, not done as in finished reading, but I'm done like "Put a fork in me, I'm done", worn out done. See, I can't even make any sense.
Things are busy around here. Let's see, Mondays we have school, football practice 6-8, Hub has Bible study at 7:30, and that's it. Then Tuesday, more school (yes, there's a theme, school M-F- surprise!) football practice 6-8, and most days Hub works until 7. Wednesday, school, AWANA at 6. Thursday, school, homeschool meeting, football 6-8, I have Bible study at 7 and sometimes I make it if Hub doesn't work too late. Friday, school, soccer 5-6 and most days Hub works until 6. Saturday, no school, but there is a football game and a soccer game at some point. Sunday, church, and naps.
And in the midst of all of the activity, there is still housework. I am extremely lucky because I have my mom. She does almost all of the laundry, like 90% of it. I do the cooking, and we share the cleaning. The hardest part for me right now is that I am a homebody. I do not like to be gone so many evenings. And I don't like going to the ball games where I don't know that many people. I am introverted to the extreme. I do it for the boys, but I stay agitated the whole time. Add to that the fact that our evening meals have been disrupted and I'm a basket case. I like to cook. But I am horrible at menu planning. I am working on that but I'm not there yet. So given that most nights I have to leave the house around 5:30 and we usually eat between 5:30 and 6:30 and I have a hard time. I've been making a lot of casseroles.

All of this to say that putting Bible reading, and not just a little Bible reading, reading it cover to cover in 90 days is a tough task. But, because of the fact that I spend so many hours on a ball field, and the fact that my wonderful mother usually watches the other children while I am at practice, I have had many hours to read my Bible. So right at this moment, even with all my ups and downs, I am only a day behind. So I should finish sometime next week. WooooooooHoooooooooooo!!!! And God has been teaching me little bits here and there. Well, He'd be teaching me a lot more if I would let Him, but anything I learn is wonderful.

Today (or yesterday, my days are blending all together) I was thinking about how tired I was and how I just couldn't wait for ball season to be over. (October 30, 35 days from now...) But then I started thinking about this new homeschool group I just joined. It's a big group (150-175 kids) and I am terrified. It is so out of my comfort zone. But, like the ball teams, I'm doing this for my kids. They want to do it and are so excited. I can't keep them from leaving the house and experiencing the big, bad world out there. I want to protect and shelter them, but they will eventually have to stand on their own two feet so I need to teach them how to do it the way God would like.

And one way to do that is by finding out how God would like me to raise them. And the way I find that out, well, by reading the Bible of course! That's the only way to know how God wants me to live my life. And I need to show my boys that, too. Dino has already said he wants to read with me the next time I do B90Days. Oh, that does my heart good!

And as I was thinking all these things, and planning this blog entry, I read a verse that made me smile and remember that God is always there. 2 Corinthians  4:8-9 We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed.
That is such a beautiful passage. Oh, and I just re-read the rest of the chapter and it is all so good.
verses 10-18  always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus’ sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So then death is working in us, but life in you. And since we have the same spirit of faith, according to what is written, “I believed and therefore I spoke,” we also believe and therefore speak, knowing that He who raised up the Lord Jesus will also raise us up with Jesus, and will present us with you. For all things are for your sakes, that grace, having spread through the many, may cause thanksgiving to abound to the glory of God.
Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

Even when I feel like I can't take one more thing, even when I feel like I am being completely depleted, God is there, and if I listen and do what He asks, I am being renewed day by day, and the things that I am working on through Him are eternal. Thank you Father.

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