Monday, November 2, 2009

30 Days of Thankfulness: El día Dos

Today I am thankful that I have a personal relationship with Jesus.
There have been many personal issues today that have really hurt me. I have cried much more than I would like. And through the hurt, anger came. I was ready to just lay open some wounds that have been buried for years.
I prayed. I talked to my best friend, Jesus, and He said wait. And I did. And I am calmer now. I am willing to be the salt and light in the world. There is nothing that will be gained by me opening up the past. It will only cause more hurt. And God told me to honor this person, and so honor him I must. Even though he doesn't deserve my honor. But God commanded it. And because I have a close relationship with God, I can do this. I can honor a person who has done little to honor me, who has hurt me more in my life than any other person ever has. I can forgive and let it go. And I am going to apologize for my part in this issue and leave it at that.

The lightness I feel right now is astounding. I feel free. With Jesus by my side, I can do anything. And knowing that He is there and always ready to listen is so comforting. If I didn't have His friendship, I would be lost. I thank Him that I am not.

1 comment:

Michelle said...

Mae, I am praying for you!