Saturday, August 7, 2010

Day 34 of 90: A New Start

Boy, do I feel better tonight. I gotta tell you, this week has been hard. Last Friday, I was 2 days ahead in my reading, 2 full days! I felt good about that. By the time Monday rolled around, I was feeling a little cocky. (Man, is hindsight 20/20.) I knew the week would be busy. Dino was starting football. I assumed there would be at least 2 practices, but wasn't expecting 3, two hour long practices. This is the first year he has played so I really didn't know what to expect. So that always changes the day, because I have to be ready to leave the house by 5:30. Dinner has to be finished, the other boys content enough to stay with Nanny, etc. Then there was the added excitement of Frog's birthday. I had to go shopping for his gifts, and somehow find time to do that by myself (Monday morning) and then find time to wrap the gifts (Friday) and shop for his special dinner (Friday) and make his cake (again Friday, but had wanted to do it and wrapping on Thursday). Then I found out that Dino had to have a physical in order to play football. Somehow I managed to get one for Tuesday.

So for me, it was already a busy week. And on Monday I thought that since I was 2 full days ahead on my reading, I'd be totally fine for the rest of the week. Well, as they say, that's what I get for thinking. I had no way of knowing dad would end up in the hospital Thursday. I had planned to get most of Frog's birthday stuff done on Thursday. But then, I expected that mom would be there all day and I'd have backup, someone to make sure the boys were happy while I was wrapping presents and making a cake. I also had no idea that football practice would be rained out on Thursday, when I was expecting to get a lot of reading done. So, somehow, my 2 days ahead had evaporated. And I went to bed Thursday right on schedule. And went to bed on Friday a half day behind.

Sigh. But God is always faithful. I prayed and asked for His help. I wanted today to bring my focus back on Him. And even though I'm tired and dad is still in the hospital, and I still have three wild boys running around, I managed to focus more on Him today. I got all my reading done and I'm now caught back up. I realize it was only a slight fall back, but I haven't been behind a single time this whole 34 days. The last time I did the Bible in 90 Days, I was at least a day behind from about 15 days in. And stayed that far behind the whole time. I didn't want it to happen this time.

And after this small setback, I am going to dust myself off and start again. God is right here beside me and I know why I'm doing this. It's all for Him. I need to remember that. It's not for me. It's not so I can boast that I've done this. I'm doing this so I can learn more about Him. I know me. I don't need to study me. But Him, wow, I need to learn everything I can about Him. And the way to do that is to read His Word.

And He showed me what I needed today in my reading. Ezra 9:9  For we were slaves. Yet our God did not forsake us in our bondage; but He extended mercy to us in the sight of the kings of Persia, to revive us, to repair the house of our God, to rebuild its ruins, and to give us a wall in Judah and Jerusalem.
He will never forsake me. Never. He is always right beside me with open arms. It's up to me to walk in.

1 comment:

Natalieh said...

"I know me. I don't need to study me. But Him, wow, I need to learn everything I can about Him. And the way to do that is to read His Word." - That is a great line. Always a pleasure reading your blog. Hope you have a blessed day.